New to my taste buds

After lunch today, Che (my office mate) brought out a big green mango from one of their Mango Trees at home. Sliced it into bite size. But since there's no available salt at our Pantry, she prepared Soy Sauce + Sugar!!!! eeeewwwww.

At first I really dont want to try it. However, looking at how Che enjoy each mango strips dipped in that mixture, I gave in and tried it as well.

It doesn't taste bad at all but still weird for me.

Search for my Wedding Dress

We've attended several bridal affairs since Jan of this year and I talked several friends who tied the knot for recommendations for their gowns. I phoned several local suppliers and grabbed almost every supplier brochures for wedding designers, couture, etc. Send several emails here and there. I even read entries on W@W. (but so many entries nakakahilo magbasa..hehe)

So, just last night...I was checking new pictures of Richard Buan and Paul Vincent. For the record, Paul Vincent was my favorite Photog. I've been a fan/follower of him for almost 2 years now. However, we settled with Richard Buan because of budget. I must say, Richard Buan though is equally talented. (I hope hindi magtampo si Richard if ever he reads this. :P )
Anyways, to continue my story..... as I was browsing Paul Vincent's site, I went to one of his links. Hovered my mouse to "The Veluz Bride". Instantly I was WoWed by her creations. It's beautiful. I browsed and browsed for older posts and every bride was amazingly beautiful with the her dress. I sent her an email asking for her rates, etc. then went to sleep.

So today, I was lucky to be home early. I opened my rig...checked emails to see if Veluz replied then visit Veluz' site again. Since there's no reply, I sent SMS to the mobile number posted on the site. As expected I got a reply but not from Veluz but from Gercel. Exchanged few SMS with her. I was already stitching thoughts of myself, with my gown made by Veluz when an SMS came from Gercel. The SMS was:

Gercel: "Ms. Janice, sori po bt we r fully bookd na po on dat date..."

Me: "why? how many brides do you accommodate ba?"

Gercel: "Yes po, we only accomd8 4 brides in a day.."

Me: "Ganun? So quota na kayo? :-( "

Gercel: "Yes po, so sori po tlaga.."

Me: *sigh*

My dream dress from Veluz....Gone!!! :(

Bleeding

I guess you really don't understand me at all. The x number of years we had together does not guarantee how perfectly well you know me. It's Vice versa.

I admit, i am complicated. You always tell me that I am such a big puzzle to solve. And each time you find the correct connecting piece, the picture suddenly changes. How inconsiderate right? At one point in time, we are in heaven, few minutes passed, we hit the floor face flat. Why? I bet you know the answer.

It's the choice I take that oftentimes crashed my heart. And everytime I chose the option which favors you most, I suffer. Suffer in a sense and in a different way that you really can not comprehend. My heart bleed endlessly when I made a wrong choice. And I wear my mask coz I need it. But You know, I really can't fake what I feel within. If only you really know how to look within, you'll see. You always look at my eyes. But can you really see through?

It takes two to tango. Yes. Well noted. It will not be in history if I didn't permit it. I'm not saying I don't want ANY of it. Ofcourse I do! It's beautiful. It's something worthy to treassure. It's a gift. But It's also a gift not meant to be open yet. Not meant to enjoy yet. Not meant to taste yet.

I guess, bottomline, I made a decision at wrong a time.
I am still vulnerable. I am weak. I am not so brilliant at all.

Yes, You will not understand ME.

My New Baby

I got a new baby....Isn't she pretty? ^__^



I so lurve her.... She's just less than 12 USD.

Realization

Few things I realized about life, about people around me...about myself.

1. My blog is growing spiders web already.
--> Fact. I admit, i am too damn lazy to lift a finger to type down thoughts from my nutshell. I dunno. I have all the time to do this. I have so much free time (actually not free by I can use my office hours doing A-O-Nothing :P). But then again, I chose not to update it. Simply because, I AM LAZY!


2. People really come into your life for:
--> 1. A reason
2. A season
3. A lifetime
ern...let me leave it that way and not expound it anymore. Again, I'm Lazy. :P


3. I am Malambing - NOT!
--> Yes. People who know me can testify about this. I have my own way of showing lambing, affection or whatever you call it is to people I love, people I work with, people I like, my friends, my family and even to my significant one. Up do this date, I still can not identify what my love language is? If its through:
1. Words of Affirmation
2. Quality Time
3. Receiving Gifts
4. Acts of Service
5. Physical Touch
It seems, I am on a combination or it's one-of, one-of thing for me.


4. I value my family - A LOT!!
--> This is given. Ever since I came to this world, I belived my true purpose is bound for my family. I still have my flaws and shortcomings but Hey, no one is perfect even if you want to be one. Last night, I went on reading mails while uploading some stuff and came across this.

I realized, I need to make good use of OUR time together.


5. Someone is literally ..... under nourish (*wink). He wants more of this:

Good thing about today is...my blog is finally updated :P